-On The Runway.

I have always been bad at starting such writings... But you know, things gotta start at some point. And this has to be the time that the ''chance&change'' starts. Impatience is the word that can explain the next months ahead of me. But the word ''Impatience'' alone is not enough, we can add weariness, being fed up and it just goes on like that. Having returned from a trip in Romania, which I can call the best week of my life, I feel like my heart just started beating. For the first time in my life, I realised that the world is bigger than I thought. I'm just fed up with living in a town whose people are total jerks and narrow-minded, and I'm also fed up with going to school every-fucking-day and seeing the same people, doing the same staff, sitting in the same desk and repeating this cycle for 8 hours every 5 days of the week. Well you might think that the reason I think like this is the trip I took, but it's not the real reason. I've been thinking about these for a good 1 year. The trip was not the reason but just another thing that clinched my thoughts. I'm starting to feel like I have to make some big changes, but since I will be in university 5 months from now I think changes will happen naturaly. That's why I don't really rush things, but the black horse inside me is not as patient as I am. And I really don't want to calm that horse down, because I know that it is the thing that will keep me alive and lively throughout my life. Well I might have gone hard on the people I know, but there are still a handful of people I admire and love. Except those people, I really don't give a shit about others. There is always this feeling... The feeling that I don't belong to here. That's not to say that the life I live is miserable, I'm not suffering from poverty or anything. I'm sure that there are thousand of people who want to have a life like the one I have, so you may think that I must be thankful, and be content with what I already have, well actually I am. But since I am not a ''Thank to God'' type of person, I doubt if I will ever be satisfied with the life I am living right now. I'm satisfied with the parts of my life which can be fixed by money, I have to admit, but the others part like the place I live in, the people I see... That's what I'm not satisfied with about my life. I believe, they can only be changed with a great amount of passion which I truly have. I have a lot of dreams as you can understand, and I will fight to death to make these dreams real. Because you know: ''Like a true nature's child, we were born, born to be WILD.''